It's what we crave most in this world - more time. More time to to finish that project. More time to spend on our Spring Break. More time to share stories with family on Christmas Eve. More time to spend with the people we love. More time to laugh. More time in that final embrace. If only that last breath lasted a lifetime, we could suspend time, hang in a moment, dangle our lives over a life that is quickly dissipating.
Unfortunately, nothing lasts forever. No one stays forever. Eventually, we all walk away on our own path. We all abandon someone in the end.
In less abstract terms, the abrupt illness of my dog, Harriet has caused a catharsis of memories to erupt. Christina's Dad in a casket; Toe's Mom 4 years later; my Grandpa screaming for it to stop; my cat, Pizza, lurching her paws forward in pain; the last time I saw Kay...and then there is the worst sense of abandonment, loss, fear, grief - the day my Grandma, my best friend, my soulmate's eyes went stone. Her breath was still constant, her hands still warm, but she was no longer there.
More time. I would give my left kidney for more time.
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